With my career life relatively stable (at least for 6 months), I’m now focusing on straightening out the other aspects of my life: financial, relationship, and my physical health.
Finances…YIKES! Man, I don’t really recommend being unemployed for anyone. Because of cut off periods, I only got one pay cheque in October and it was only a half sized one. So I had to borrow money from my mom (more and more), to cover me until my next pay cheque. Which means I essentially have to pay two rents in the month of November, which means I’m looking at another broke-ass month. And then I end up with 3 pay cheques in December, but with presents and parties (for friends and families), I doubt I’ll have much left over. It is so friggin depressing to look ahead and know that I won’t be comfortable again until January at the earliest. I don’t want to be a broke student anymore!
Relationships…hmmm. On the friendship side of things, I’m still looking for that best friend to click with. I had high hopes for the girl who was on her honeymoon, but so far no “friend spark”. Oh well, I guess. And with the boyfriend, I was having worries. He’s in Education and is incredibly busy this semester. As in, he comes home and goes to the office to do homework all night. I’ve been getting really resentful about doing all the laundry and cleaning around the house, including his underwear (that’s love) and I really haven’t felt any support or appreciation for the work. We had a talk this past weekend and he said that he hasn’t felt any appreciation either. So we were kind of caught in a really bad place. We talked it out and things are a bit better but while he’s being really cuddly and needy, I’m still feeling kind of distant towards him. I don’t know how to interpret what that means. I’m really hoping it’s just a phase that I’m in right now!
Physical….CRAP! I got weighed at a clinic this week and it wasn’t pretty. As I got on the scale, there was a split second moment where I thought “hmm, maybe I shouldn’t look” but unfortunately I did. So I’m resolving to not get this heavy ever again. I have huge issues with self-esteem and body image. I’m not obese and even though I’m only 18 pounds over the weight I want to be at, I still feel absolutely disgusting most days. So I’m making a stand, and announcing it to you that this is IT. I’m making a change. I’m going to start working out. I spent a lot of time (you might say too much) at work creating a workout plan for myself to start on Friday. I have a 2 week pass for the YMCA, so tomorrow on my day off I’m going to go check it out. I really want to lose 8 pounds before Christmas, so I’ve made a 7 week plan. It’s a bit intense, considering I’m going from now work outs to working out 5 days a week, but I’m feeling really motivated. I’ve found a gym near work, I have 2 weeks free, and I have my awesome plan, so I’m feeling pretty positive. I hope that this time, the lifestyle change actually sticks. Wish me luck!!
Oh yeah, my 1001 goals are coming soon. They’re on PL’s computer, and I was about halfway finished. I’m looking forward to having them as a motivation tool!
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Good to hear from you!
Sounds like you're getting everything in order...I definitely understand how you're feeling! I went through the whole "MUST organize life NOW" phase a couple of months ago...hence the blog and my 1001. I'm like that though; I thrive on organization. Lists and a dayplanner just make it seem like things are getting done and I'm making progress.
Glad you're job is working out for you – often, that's the most stressful battle! As for the working out and health bit, it's always on my mind too. I definitely put that sickness weight I lost back on...lol. I'm thinking about getting a membership to the Kinsmen. I just hope I would go enough! I was taking group classes here and there, but that's kind of tapered off and is just too expensive so I need to get moving again in some way! And the food issue is just that for me – an issue. I looove junk food...chocolate especially, and I like all kinds! It's so hard for me. Let me know how your plan goes; maybe we can motivate one another! Good luck!
I need to cut back on the spending too – wedding costs are creeping up on me!
And it's so funny, I totally agree...we have so much in common that it's a little strange...but awesome!
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